Taking Control
I haven't been able to get into the mood to do my assignment for my first class tomorrow. My MBA program started last week and the first assignment is due tomorrow by six o'clock tomorrow afternoon. I am a procrastinator by nature but recently I haven't been able to get myself in the mood to do anything other than eat and sleep.After some reflection, I realize that the problems I am having getting motivated stem from the fact that I feel life is controlling me when I should be in control of my life. I have been trying to lose weight...but life gets in the way. I have been trying to do things around the house...but life gets in the way. I am trying to go back to school...but life gets in the way.
This evening, I went outside and sat out in the spa to do some thinking and realized I am not depressed, although it feels somewhat like it because I want to eat and sleep all of the time, but I am upset that I am not in control of my life. While admittedly, I am not in a tailspin by any means, I just don't have the control I need to have so that I can move forward in the most efficient manner.
As most of you know, my current field of employment is shaky at best. While I can do nothing about the current state of my employer, I can position myself to be ready for any situation that might come my way. I will not be blindsided again. I can control my attitude toward school so that I can get as much out of it as possible. I can control my gym regime and eating habits so that I can lose the weight I would like to and gain the added self-esteem that comes with it.
Reading several of my recent posts, I realize I have allowed myself to become less positive that I would like. Hopefully, that changes tonight!
Have a great week!!
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Labels: life lessons, MBA, Resolutions, Weight loss
posted by jdanielsc @ 8:36 PM
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